There is so many things to do and just 24 hours per day. IT'S not enough!
So i have a reflection. Painting, drawing all this stuff is an addiction. A REALLY TOUGH ONE!
If u wanna travel through time into the future, well for me the only think u need to do is start, for example, pating. I'm playing with my ink, create some work for, i think like 2 hours, BUT IT IS NOT 2 hours, it's 5 hours.
Excuse me, but Where are those 180 minutes? I litterally tavel to the future. And the worst think is that u can't stop. U just CAN'T until you're finished. I'ts freaking impossible. All this, it's kinda my guilty pleasure, but in the way like "i want to do it badly but i know i shouldn't". I don't start when i have like less thatn 5-6 free hours.
When i started studying Medical Analysis. Well, i stopped drawing for almost an year. And i mean it. I didn't touched any paintbrush, any creaon. Nothing. It was like a rehab. And then just before my first important exam my sis ask me to draw little sth for her project. I did, and i had to study after. It actually caused phisical pain, the inability to draw, to enjoy creating sth from nothing, well not exactly nothing, from my abnormal mind, that is. The relief....hmmm, that is sth you can fell but not describe, not with words.
So yeah this, whatever is it (drawing, creating, for other people it is their hobbies, for my it is actually the way of thinking), it is beautiful, and full of joy but at the same point it is destructiv if u for some reason can't be apart of it, if u are cut from those things. It is probably my biggest addiction.
Sorry for my english, for intepunction, sorry u maybe lost your time.